The greatest desire is for separation.
And the mechanism which keeps us in separation is ultimately an energy, polarized by judgment.
We conclude when something bad happens, it’s the devil, or any enemy. And that when something good happens, it’s God, or Jesus Christ, or shiva, or krishna, or your mom, or your ancestors, or your friend, or whatever.
Before I realized this, I was motivated to pursue my goals and step through my fears to get there. Feel the adversity within myself and pushing forwards anyways.
Some examples of this would be talking to a crush, public speaking, going on a trip, starting a business, and what have you.
As I got older, I learned that I could generate this same result through my mind by means of meditation, which I still participate in. Integrating the energies between my desires and my fears. Primarily by means of a silent mind and just observing the energy as a phenomenon.
I learned along the way that all goals are a means to step into an energy. We want this or we want that because we “think” it’ll make us feel a certain way. Maybe we want a new car because we think people will look up to us and we will get a feeling of significance. Maybe we want to talk to our crush because we think they’ll complete us, it’ll make us feel welcomed and whole. Maybe we want to have a business because we think other people will respect us and we will feel satisfied.
All these goals are means to an energy. If we were in sync with that energy, we would just naturally move towards it. When we have aversions to that energy, we find ways to excuse ourselves unknowing the true reason why.
Fear and Desire are two sides of the same coin. What’s left when they are both neutralized? A newer and more powerful coin. The same game just keeps spinning though.
Round and round we go, when will it stop, nobody knows.
