On multiple occasions I experienced being one with God, where my reality was perceived as perfect. I had no problems in the creation, everything was perfect, but I didn’t like it, to me it was hell. And I would choose to forget, that was my way of entering back into separation. Doing that a number of times, I saw that it wasn’t going to work, I had to see what was beyond the veil. I had to push through the angst and discomfort, through the agony of being alone no matter who I was with.
In this I created another polarity, that my mind was the devil. The devil being adversarial but I perceived it as my enemy. This motivated me more on the path of The Truth. I needed The Truth to defeat the Lies within me, in this I created another polarity. But in my quest, I found unity again. I saw the nature of a lie, and why it exists. I saw the nature of the devil and why it exists. I found unification with god once again, my god at the time being The Truth. This polarized into a relationship with Jesus Christ, adversarial in nature. Finding separation by means of adversity. Not in a way like an enemy, but more in a way of practice, both parties becoming stronger in their interactions.
All that said, this is just lore, nothing more, all of this is just my lore. Stories, ways of explaining that which cannot be defined, that which cannot be contained.
I heard a conversation where people were arguing about evolution, and one was saying evolution was real and the other saying it was false. I couldn’t help but ask myself did evolution exist in the world prior to this one? Would this debate even exist in the previous world?
True or not, I think the only thing that matters is if it is true or is it not true for you, does it work in your model, your logos. But then again, that’s the whole point of these debates, the adversary, to experience separation. We’re all trying to make sense of the world, of ourselves, of God. This too is fueled by the desire for separation.
In my experience this pole shift, this new identity processed, we find ourselves hating what we once loved and loving what we once hated. This is not necessarily in reference to things or events but what we hold to be God. It’s bringing the two poles together to birth something new, creating a new form of separation.
