Negative Self-Talk and The Adversary
I was driving down a two-lane road at night. I could see that something was going on off to the right—a parked car on the shoulder. At the same time, another car was coming toward me from the opposite direction, its headlights directly in my eyes. I slowed down naturally, unable to see well. There […]
My Meditation Further Explained and Walkthrough
I’ve shown my meditation, live and in person, to three individuals so far. I did this in my home. All three lost consciousness within ten minutes—passed out cold during the process. One of those individuals couldn’t even remember why they were in my house when they came to, freaking out, wondering, “How did I get […]
It’s Turtles All The Way Down
I’ve spent a considerable amount of time in meditation. I’ve talked about my meditation in another video—the one I call harvesting—and I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. I don’t think it would be beneficial to people. The emphasis is on breaking apart the identity to step into another interpretation, but every time that is done, […]
Children in Adult Bodies
In a lot of religious and philosophical traditions this theme comes up of being little children. It’s often hard to remember what it was like being a child. The level of emotions, the level of attachment, the level of fear. And then we grow up. But what does it mean to grow up? What is […]
My Theory On Christianity: Why Suffering is a Feature, Not a Bug
There are many, many, schools of thought enveloped in the term Christianity. There are many who admire this concept and there are many who despise this concept. I think both sides are confused in that they misunderstand it. And my view will probably upset every single one of them, which it is supposed to, because […]
My Theory on The Devil
I have thoughts on this concept people call The Devil. The problem is, we have all these stories, preinstalled. Some people simply don’t care, and I think that’s valid. For the vast majority, I would suggest that none of this is applicable, it’s not important, it doesn’t mean anything. And most people would simply dismiss […]
Just Be Yourself
I remember when I was 16, I was trying to figure out the whole dating thing. I asked a woman I worked with, she was older than me and figured she could help. She said, whatever you do, just be yourself. I was very taken aback and I couldn’t help but ask “Be myself? What […]
My Meditation: Harvesting
I have a meditation that I’ve been involved with for many, many years. The thing is, I would never recommend it to anyone. There is a cost associated with it. I can’t say that it is “good”. Interesting maybe, but not good. I honestly think it is dangerous, it can lead to unpleasant experiences, for […]
Implied Consent: Judgment and Mercy
Before 2010, I didn’t question my morality. I had judgments about what is right and wrong, and just kind of flowed through existence. My morality was very black and white. This is good and this is bad. After 2010, I had an ego death and a result of that, I began to question myself and […]
Chemical Reaction of Light
I was meditating and in a pretty high state of consciousness. I found myself in a deep black abyss but witnessed these beams of light, similar to laser beams, but were solid like matter. I called them pillars of fire. One beam of light would press into another beam of light, and they would melt […]